Friday, January 19, 2018

Matthew called suicide hotline: No one answered. He killed himself

...Lifeline lacking resources for 24-hour operation


Before attempting suicide last week Friday, 24-year-old Matthew Levi Caesar called the suicide hotline desperate for help. No one answered, his family said.

Caesar went ahead and drank a poison. Caesar was found lying on a football field at the University of the West Indies, St Augustine. He died at the Eric Williams Medical Sciences Complex on Monday.

Speaking at his funeral service at Guides Funeral Home, San Fernando, on Thursday family friend Ramkishore Maharaj pleaded for the authorities to ensure that a 24-hour suicide hotline is made available to those in need.

“The hotline only operates from 8a.m. to 4p.m. and persons trying to access this service must pay for it. If we want to prevent tragedies like this from happening again, we should strive to ensure that this vital service can be made more readily accessible to those in desperate need of it. One of the greatest things you can give someone who is struggling, is understanding and a listening ear. If we want to change the world, let's start with making it easier for people to get help when they need it,” he said.

The Express telephoned the suicide hotline shortly before 4p.m and again at around 4.20p.m. No one answered.
Maharaj said he received a call from Caesar the night he drank the poison. Caesar thanked Maharaj for everything he had done for him. Caesar's cellphone was then switched off.
Caesar had sent a worrying voice note to his friends who immediately began searching for him. Maharaj said they checked the football fields first, as it was his first passion.

The former Naparima College, San Fernando, pupil faced many hardships, Maharaj said, but continued to be a shining example for anyone facing adversity.

“Matthew always had a plan. He loved board games because he always had a strategy and plan to win. People would say that the actual way to play the game was that you sit down for an hour and then Caesar wins. Someone once said that if you meet Matthew, you would always want to meet him again, but if you meet him on the football field, you never want to see him again. Football was one of Matthew's greatest passions. He was an integral member of a football team started by his friends as well as the engineering football team. He always carried his heart on the field,” he said.

Caesar worked at the Cocoyea Supermarket in San Fernando for some time before enrolling in the Faculty of Engineering at the University of the West Indies, St Augustine.

“While pursuing this vision of changing the world, he became plagued by thoughts of negativity, as he struggled to find solutions to our broken society. He started feeling like things would never change and that he was alone in his vision. He no longer felt like being a part of this broken system. He was strong but he was tired. He was once told that he can't change the world, and his response was that he would change the world one life at a time which is why today we want to encourage and continue this mentality, ” Maharaj said.

He described Caesar as brilliant, someone who always left one with something to think about.

LifeLine responds

LifeLine, a suicide hotline, has apologized to Caesar's family.
A representative told the Express, “Saying we are sorry can't really express how we feel that he didn't get through.”
But she lamented that the organisation lacked resources to operate efficiently.
LifeLine operators are available Monday to Friday between the hours 7.30am to 3.30pm and then from 6p.m to 6a.m.
On weekends, however, there is no one available to take calls until 6p.m.
“At this time we have limited resources and this is all we can do at this time. We are concerned about this, that we are not able to be here and take calls for 24 hours. We want to be here 24 hours, but we do not have the funding to do so,” she said.
The official said LifeLine operated solely on a Government subvention.
“We depend on volunteers. And we need more volunteers here now. We are appealing to people to come forward and join us,” she said.
Suicidal persons can call the hotline at 231-2824 on Monday to Friday between the hours 7.30am to 3.30pm, 220-3636 from 6pm to 6am.
Also, you can contact LifeLine at and on Facebook.